1/13/2018 (Post 9/16/2017) After Joseph's holiday party

Saw you both again today and nothing has changed. I couldn't even look at either of you without feeling hurt. I can't change that feeling so i will just have to deal with that until either i just can't see you anymore or something else changes. I am so lost as to how to fix this situation, It is not fair for anyone of us, but we all got into this together. I can't run and i can 't hide from either of you and I really don't think that would be smart anyway because the amount of pain I am feeling is going to start to tear me apart.