3/29/2018 (Aftermath of 9/16/17)

I am me take me or leave me. I am not an emotionally stable person so all three of you need to understand thats just me, Thats how i am and i am tired of pretending to be emotionally stable, I don't need to have a good day, I don't need to be happy, I don't see being happy in the same way others do, I don't need it. What i need is balance not happiness or anger. I go through cycles of both of those things, But at this point to much of one always triggers the other. I have spent the last 5 years being able to find that balance but I no longer can find that balance because of that one night.Without the balance i am to far to one side or the other.