After that day the days go by but that one separates themselves from others.Another Post 9/16/2017 moment

I wish i could say everything i am thinking but i cant. Just that look at you just makes me want to still be part of your life even if it means i cant be what i want. Sometimes its just easier to admit its not going to be what I want but that doesn't mean its bad it just means you have feelings and want to let them shine. Feelings are not always good so take them as they come!
 4/13/2018 Its hard for me to understand how i ended up in this mess. How did I fall into this emotional tornado, I would like to know. I want all 3 of you, I need all of you that may not be in the way i truly want them but the pain of losing any of you will far surpass my ability to survive . Three separate people hold a key to the emotional side of me and i just have to understand that my emotional balance is going to be affected because i want kiss all of you.
 11/17/2018 Now I hold none of the 3 that hold my heart in their hands and I'm losing control of the emotional side of myself all because of the decisions made that night.