1-29-18 It still goes on (Post 9/16/2017)

I am feeling better day by day however it doesn't change my feelings. Dealing with this in time gets easier but the emotions behind it seem to get hidden and pushed to the back of my mind. BJ, Ted, Steve, I cant explain why you three have been able to touch this part of my emotional side that many others have never have been able to. My heart has attached itself to all of you, You all need to know its going to take more time to become whole through this roller coaster. I am trying but i am very unstable at this point. Please just understand my dealing with this will produce some anger and i control that side as well as i can control the side that started this whole thing.