3/24/2018

More than 6 months later i continue to deal with these emotions that have been released. At this rate it will easily become years. 09/16/2017 a day that i will never be able to change but will always be the date that i can use to mark my path to instability. Parts of me wish it never happened the other parts only want more. I miss you, I hate you, I love you, I can sit here and ask why my emotions go from one extreme to the next but as much as i want to pin it down there is no way to get better without dealing with the emotional connections that have been started. I cannot say that i will survive through this, Its not my choice though all i can do is just roll with the punches to keep these feelings hidden because they will hurt others but i am not sure they won't hurt me far more considering the emotional roller coaster i continue to ride.