3/9/2018

I admit we both knew that this was the way it was going to end but i can't stop being hurt by the memory of you. I miss your lips and just want to kiss you, I thought that if we only had a finite amount of time together it would make it easier, I was wrong it just leaves me with no closure and more heartbreak. In less than a 24 Hr span I found someone that made me happy and then had to say goodbye in that same amount of time. I Miss you!  I don't let go easily and this will take a while because of you. As if my life wasn't hard enough you had to walk in and add to my emotional stress.

3/25/2018 Update:  They say go to Mexico take a vacation you need it. I can go anywhere i want but in the place my mind is right now the miles will never change where I am emotionally! I will draw the same energy no matter where i go. The resolution isn't distance.

3/26/2018 Update" Carl i am sorry i had to drag you into this emotional tornado i have been in. Constantly looking for someone to take these feelings i am dealing with and make me forget the two that i will have to continue to deal with for the foreseeable future. I wish so much you were not so far away, You gave me something i really never knew i wanted, I want to be acknowledged, I want to be special, i wanted to feel cared about and you filled that void and were instantly took away.

11/29/2018 If i would only have known, I would have got your number carl. I should have because i obviously was trying to be safe but in the end what does it matter now ?