Another night with you both.

Ted you said you cant give me what i want, then you kissed me in the same breathe and said to me you can go sleep with steven. In case you didnt know , Out of the three of you he is the only one who doesnt question my stability and just gives me what i need, Attention . I dont need you to be mine i just need to feel i am worth your attention especially sexual because of how insecure i am. You may not understand how these feelings in me are working but  you do need to know that this is how i am and i need people to just see the struggle inside and just kiss me because they arent scared of the emotions that are produced by my emotional side. I dont blame you for your rational choices but sometimes things cant be fixed by logical thought, Sometimes emotional changes of directions can guide you to the places that serve the best result.