08/31/2018 almost one year

NO I don't want to see you. Not now, or anytime soon. I am really sad that decisions we made a year ago have caused us to be in this state.  I take complete responsibility for the direction this has gone but its almost impossible for me to take responsibility for the emotions that our actions opened up. I did not choose all of these feelings to cause this dysfunction in my life. And treating me as if i am the problem just shows how you both don't want to share the blame for the situation. If you want to wash yourselves of me then it just shows more about you than me. I will have to deal with this without you, So don't blame me for using the necessary ways to bring me to whole. There is no way i will ever be whole again but i need to at least find a way to be stable.