I'm not sure i can let go.

Never in my life have i felt the pain i do now. So many things contributed to this but I said I do
and i still do. I'm not sure i am strong enough to live through this, I thought loosing Ted and
Steve hurt but that was nothing compared to the hole i feel in my heart right now. I don't
go through a day that i don't cry. I'm just lost without you. I don't move on and i don't let go and why should I, I found the one but you obviously didn't. Call it a flaw but i will never apologize for caring to much and wanting to hold on. I'm very aware i am not perfect but it never seemed to make a difference till we started inviting others into the bedroom.